Category Archives: bipolar
the manic mom and work
i am a bit of an overachiever. i’ve always performed at a high level in school and at work. i went to high school and college on academic scholarships, juggling sports, theater, music and other activities. this was no different … Continue reading
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Tagged anxious, bipolar, depression, identity, manic, seizures, work
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racing thoughts…
i’m trying to figure out what a manic episode is for me. it seems to change every time my medication is adjusted. i was put on lithium a couple of months back and definitely feel the difference. but i’ve been up all night … Continue reading
i can’t say no…
sometimes i feel like i do everything for the people around me. my family, my friends, work, where i volunteer. i get asked to run this errand, pick this up at the store for me, put this away, write this … Continue reading
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Tagged anxious, bipolar, demanding, emotionally erupt, expectations, guilt, mom, no, sharp tongue
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toddler shenanigans
no one said that life with a toddler was going to be easy. B is now 22 months old. not a baby, but not yet a big girl. she goes to school everyday when i go to work. after 3 months … Continue reading
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Tagged 2 ft terrorist, anxious, bipolar, mom, new momma, temper tantrum, toys everywhere
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i’m late…
i just came from the doctor. i was hopeful when i called this morning. i was anxious. i was nervous. i was confused. i’m late. i don’t mean late in the “i’m gonna be 20 minutes late for work because … Continue reading
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which came first?
i’ve been unpacking a lot of the perverbial emotional baggage doing this blog. sitting and writing and reflecting on life has been really good. i’m proud of myself for sticking with the blogging process. i tend to get into a new … Continue reading
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Tagged abuse, bipolar, conversion disorder, depression, divorce, domestic violence, ex-husband, manic, rape, seizures
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potty training
everything is in a constant state of change when being a mother. from infant to toddler. sitting to standing. breast feeding to solid foods. and now I embark on a huge journey with little miss B – potty training! … Continue reading
Posted in bipolar, new mom, toddler tales
Tagged 2 ft terrorist, 21 month old, anxious, baby girl, chunky dog, clean house, mom, new momma, potty training
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I fucking hate Facebook
i was doing a little cyber stalking last night on Facebook and just got the strangest feeling come over me. i hate the way that looking at other people’s profiles makes me feel sometimes. i find myself constantly comparing their lives to … Continue reading
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Tagged authenticity, facebook, facebook is the devil, green with envy, i hate facebook, jealousy, want to be my authentic self
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#ItAffectsMe
yes, I have a blog. but that doesn’t mean that I am public about my diagnosis. my parents and fiancé know that I am bipolar. I’ve told some of my close friends, and that’s it. no one at work or … Continue reading
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limbo…
I often get the feeling like I’m in limbo. Almost a floating sensation. I’m in between things – moods, places, experiences. I never really feel present. Somehow I’m someplace else. Not quite myself but never someone else. This in-between state … Continue reading
manic momday 